::: aoi ::: shadow of transcendence :::

Thursday, July 14, 2005

21:49

14th July 2005

Woke up today, feeling really dejected!
Had an argument with mom about my financial problems..
Said she's ashamed with me for not giving her money,, not buying her stuff.. like OTHER children does to their mom.
And there i was trying mi best not to shout back.. Can feel the tears coming. buti hold it back. repressing my feelings.. MEDITATION!! i focused on the tv.. it does works.. soon the feelings gone but the memory stayed on.. sigh..
fine i M sorry for not giving u money.. i admit i AM a pampered child.. n asking u for money whn i cld save up is BAD of me.. but jus don say that u were ashamed of me.. kena like that dont know how many times.. sigh.. THANKS dorothy for MEDITATION!!
Anyway, i m so fasting next week.. but now my Ezlink is -12 cents.. ARG!!!
School was fine.. thought of skipping first lecture cause very de SIAN!!.. feeling lost after yesterday.. but i dragged mi feet..
met fiza, fren n liana to en route to school..
Dorothy lesson really fun but tt time no mood to laugh.. cause was readin 8 days.. haha
thn eat! met Nad.. n waa mi coloring not bad la haha.. thn spent 30 mins trying to write the word "MOTOR CORTEX" nad offered to write but i don wan.. Ego la.. bsides was in the aspiration mood.. but still now cannot get!..--__--``
lab was fun.. being turned here n there n the CLC .. Allan teachings very fruitful .. wish he was our skill lecturer!
thn went back home.. waiting for anotehr day to come..

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::::::::::[Rizo]::::::::

shadowy wishes

Canon IXUS 400 digital camera
Piano lessons
~~Harry Porter and the HBF~~
money
~~Hs3033 ICA(to finish it)~~
~~Hs3033(yellow~~)
Hs3032(behavior)
Hs3053(Project)
~~Someone special~~
Diet
a 3G handphone
new clothes
i pod mp3
a laptop

shadowy figures

peiyi
SUeAnnE
BluebEri
Pee
Jaime frM Nyp
ZA
T.A.B
CG
CH
Iliac
Dens
FrienD
SaiFUn
Ungu
Rina

shadow links

blogger
blogskins
boxtorrents
downloadanime.org
haloscans
cute characters getting killed
surfus UP
tag-board

shadow self

Name: Rizo

Sex: Not often but i do Wank

Add: SIng-a-pore

DOB: 1st Jan 1986

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best viewed in 1024 X 768 resolution. a brief history about the author pertaining to the theme of shadow of transcendence. it came about in the wee hours of the early morning while being whisked away into memories of the past etched deep within the mind. bittersweetness that tingled the tastebuds of her emotions and feelings, the only way out for true liberation from this reality is what is behind the shadow of transcendence; suicide. the taste of iron-rust blood coiled with the lingering bittersweetness is the only contemplation of which the simplicity of life has to offer in exchange for the shadow of transcendence. made in the heavens through one creator, an angel borne to serve man; fell from where it belonged to earth where its purity shadowed by boredom and nohing better to do.

enjoy what i make out of maturity and childish fantasies.